It’s been an interesting passed one year. What with the elections coming & going the way they did, Kenya & Kenyans never being the same again… lots has happened. Most of all & esp for me, that I’ve actually clocked one year in my current relationship is quite a milestone. Why that is rated as quite an occurrence because the last time that went down was maybe in 2002. Which surely shouldn’t be counted as such as it was a long distance relationship and being as young as I was, falling in love from a distance - through non existent emails and emotional turmoil - wasn’t really the way to go.
So I’m at that point where the honeymoon has just ended… where the bubble bursts! Where you start to count the days spent together or apart, moments shared or shattered, words exchange both good and bad….when you start to wonder about where all of this is going. It’s at that point that we consciously check into the relationship (because before you have been floating somewhere on cloud 23), look at our partners a little closer and wonder a little deeper.
It’s at this point that I panic at the thought of questioning my happiness and the source of it… and digging I have done in the passed months… yet slowly I’m liking what I have found in the depth of the questions. I have found that what lies within is love, warmth, hope, fun, drama, craziness, irksome thoughts, jealous rage, childish tantrums. Quiet honestly I’m finding that it’s the refuge of my emotions, the haven of my future and the hearth of my love. It’s something to write home about, and sing from the mountain top on; yet sit quietly with it over some neo soul & masala tea… counting my blessings… one by one…
Awwww..
Comment by Wariara — April 11, 2008 @ 6:43 pm