TIME & LOVE

I finally watched The LakeHouse… it didn’t disappoint and I want to watch it again. So just now I started typing out this long, in-depth post on how the movie brought so many things to mind then I realized I don’t wanna share cause it’s all still very raw in my heart…

Yet it wasn’t so much the movie, or the film techniques used, the actors ~ which were all good don’t get me wrong ~ but it was the whole concept of time & love. I mentioned the same in my post of pre-LakeHouse release under Vee Movies… It was the right movie to watch considering what I’ve gone through in my little 25 years and the impatient individual I am…

I’ve had all sorts of variations to the term love… I’ve learnt to love my family… not cause I have to but because I want to. That was branded in my heart after the number of years I was a way from home. Then there have been the one-day crashes & three-year-long infatuations… I’ve had puppy love, I’ve loved deeply for a while, and I’ve fallen in & out of love faster than you could say lo… I’ve lusted, I’ve craved and desired… but the thing my love hasn’t done is stood the test of time…. not so much so that I don’t want it to but because I don’t know what the test of time is… it means different things to different people.

To my granduncle, who passed on last week, it meant 50+ years with the love of his life… my question is, did they see forever the first time they met… or did time, curve love out of them as a sculptor would stone?

Idealistically to me Loving someone would mean taking time to be overwhelmed, to wait, to doubt, to let go, to grab on, be boredom, be excited, to believe, to lose faith, to battle with trust, be in control or not, the lust… to rekindle… and going through the cycle all over again… it simply means letting time have its toll on Love… am I willing?

And with that I re-post a poem I wrote after watching “A Beautiful Mind”…

DARE TO LOVE
by vee

If love of infinite possibility
were available to me
If all fantasies & romances
were at my immediate reach
Would I dedicate myself endlessly
to the one I love?
If all the pain and anguish
that comes with love,
were to torment me eternally
If all the heartbreaks known to man
were to seize me & capture my soul.
If all this was to happen…
Would my dedication to commitment be
my life’s story?
We’ll never know what makes or breaks us.
We’ll never be able to imagine what tomorrow will be.
But the decision to love, the choice to commit
the need to have faith in even the smallest thing.
Can create that eternal and unconditional love
which is of God, & man can only dare to imagine.

DESIRE…

upon this paper
a solemn plea
inside a bottle
set off to sea
on which I put
a lock & key
wonder if it will
come back to me…

THE ROOSTER IN ME

The Rooster is the strutting peacock of the Chinese Zodiac! These quick thinkers are practical and resourceful, preferring to stick to what is tried and true rather than taking messy, unnecessary risks. Roosters are keenly observant. It’s hard to slip anything past a Rooster, since they seem to have eyes in the backs of their heads! This quality can lead others to think the Rooster is psychic, but that’s not generally the case; instead, this Sign enjoys a keen attention to detail that makes it a whiz at anything requiring close analysis. Roosters make great lawyers, brain surgeons and accountants, to name a few of this Sign’s possible occupations. Above all else, the Rooster is very straightforward and rewards others’ honesty in kind.

Roosters aren’t shifty or cagey and have no interest in hiding behind a facade. They are the proverbial open book, telling the truth and keeping their word. If you show your hand, the Rooster will respect you for it. This kind of trusting behavior can tempt tricksters to pull a fast one on the Rooster, but that would be a bad move! Remember, this Sign doesn’t indulge in flights of fancy and keeps those eyes wide open at all times.

Roosters tend to be perfectionists and expect to be in control, especially over their appearance. Primping and posing for the Rooster can go on forever! Being noticed and admired is an aphrodisiac for Roosters, and they can go a long time on a few kind words. Roosters also adore being out on the town, especially if they’re in the company of adoring friends. The Rooster will also be the best-dressed one of the bunch — style counts with this Sign, regardless of the cost.

Roosters also expect to be in control of their surroundings, including whoever happens to be in those surroundings. Roosters keep an impeccably neat house and expect their lovers, housemates and family members to maintain the same high standards of dress and conduct as they do. This can cause problems with other, more relaxed types who just want to be accepted as is. The Rooster needs the right partner, one who understands this Sign’s basically conservative nature. With the right person, the Rooster can be the most loyal, trusting and supportive mate around, one who bends over backward to please its loved ones. Some Signs may just end up feeling hen-pecked, however.

Roosters need to learn to value their heart and soul as much as their good looks. Their excellent people skills and sharp minds are qualities that others will appreciate as much as a pretty face. This Sign would also do well to learn to adopt the philosophy of “live and let live”; perhaps an appeal to the Rooster’s logic — that it’s inefficient to waste time nagging others — will help this Sign learn to let others be whomever and however they are.

http://chinese.astrology.com

CHALLENGE

To repeat what others have said, requires education, to challenge it,

requires brains.

~Mary Pettibone Poole~ 

COLLISION

There are people I meet in life, there are those I’ve always known.. and they are those I just collide with. There is collision as in a slight bump, others a hard touch… on rare occasion I have a head on collision…

It happened this weekend (fourth time in my life - twice this year) Thing is with collisions is an energy is transferred and most times I’m confused about how to deal with it cause I didn’t plan for it. So there I am with all this energy that catapultes me to the highest realm of either my spiritual, mental or physical capacity! With this particular collision I don’t know what it is… I’m finding out as I go along. One thing I know is that from experience is that, collisions always end up in a great lesson, great friendships and or great works…

My friend thinks I’m suffering from PCD (Post Collision Disturbance). Maybe he is right.

TORN BETWEEN

I’ve just been going through the stats of my blog a bit disappointing to see numbers. Then yet again I realize that this is a personal blog so I should be estatic with the people who pass by and get to know a little more about me… as I discover myself along the way.

So I’m torn between blogger’s fame and being myself and not worrying about who reads my blog. I dunno why I even looked at the stats, dunno what I was expecting. Guess it’s the Rooster in me (chinese astrology). We tend to gravitate towards being the centre of attraction. However much I try and deny this trait in me I have it. Only that it’s clashing against the Cancer (zodiac) in me that wants to waddle away sideways and duck into a hole somewhere in the sands of time…

To all those that have had a chance to look and read through my blog, God bless, I hope I’ve also helped light a part of your mind and soul that wasn’t lite before. And that even thought we’ve not met you and I have connected over time and space.

DELIVERANCE

BUBBA SPARXXX

I’ve been travelin for some time (echo)
With my fishin pole and my bottle of shine (echo)
On these long dark dusty roads (echo)
Lookin there’s nowhere to go
I guess I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
Ay-ay-ay ay-ay-ay aaay

I left off of mama’s with my thumb in the wind
The leaves on the ground, winter’s comin again
Solid on the surface as I crumble within
But legends are made out of vulnerable men
So on the brink of death I still manage livin life
Cause so rarely in this world are these chances given twice
I indeed sold my soul, without glancing at the price
No instructions when I was handed this device
But with what I did get, I was more than generous
Put others over self on several instances
But I’m back on my feet without a hint of bitterness
And one way or another I shall have deliverance
So I say

Can you recall a time people loved you unconditionally?
Toast in the new south, this one is for history
Then I slipped fell and caused the number’s injury
Called the same people and it’s yo you just missed them B
This the formula, dammit Bubba you had it
Why’d you have to keep it Polo and New Balance?
Then they start to question whether you a true talent
Or just a redneck substance abuse addict
So then you hide away just to try to find your way
And now they back to callin you 200 times a day
I want all y’all to know, good or bad I’ll remember it
And 10 million sold in the name of my deliverance

Nothing could atone for the pain you’ve endured
The blood you shed is still stained in your valour
You took your wealth and knowledge and gave it to the poor
Only to discover that your savior’s manure
Accepted me as kin, put before your younger brother
They put a lot on us hardly knowin one another
I honestly can say that over time I’ve come to love you
Now we are brothers and together no one can touch us
It haunts me with regret I never met your baby girl
She’s an angel on your shoulder helpin us to save the world
This musical marriage is no coincedence
So my mama to me baby we shall have deliverance
So we say…

WAPI GREEN DAY?

No no no I’m not asking where the rock group Green Day is? Rather wssssuup with that Words & Pictures event called “Green Day” on Saturday??? Who was there? Yup it was tight!

I’ll sum it up like this. It was a day about the environment. Graffiti artists doing their thing on the walls, jewelry artists, t-shirt designers, rappers, dancers, poets, thinkers, metal recyclers, eco-watchers & wanainchi in one space (British Council car park) talking & thinking about the environment.

I don’t need a day to remind me to take care of the environment: I try to do so each and every single day. So what was so great about this well spent afternoon? Simple, the people who came did so with a purpose… they radiated dedication to themselves & what they do; respect of others & their surroundings. This vybe gave the whole event some jazz! It was great meeting people my age concerned about real issues… in our own style & own language.

Environmental day shouldn’t be just about not littering, smoking and all that. It should be about how you treat yourself and the people around you. They are our environment and if you can’t be bothered about the person next to you: About their opinions, their passions… then how can you even have the energy to take care of of all the trash around you?

In this country where negative vybe keeps on being dispensed by our politicians, our media -  then it would be a high time we start feeding each other with positive, intelligent, thought & action provoking information. About ourselves, where we are at, where we wanna be and what we want Kenya to be known for.

WAPI? HAPA!! ~ Where? Here!!

TEXT OF THE DESIDERATA

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world

Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

TOP VIEW

I dropped my earring in my bedroom today. So I got on my knees and hands looking for it in every nook & cranny. Couldn’t spot it so I gave up. Stood up… looked down and there is was, plain as day!

Sometimes looking at a problem from one point of view (mine, yours, ours) will not yeild results. You need a top view… and we all know who has that view…

Thought for the day:

“What we see depends mainly on what we look for.” John Lubbock