VIOLA’s IRIS

June 28, 2006

SPOILS OF WAR!!!!

Filed under: Vee World — by Vee @ 6:13 am

A funny pressure always builds up in my head on the days leading up to my birthday, peaking on the day itself only to deflate the morning after. I dunno what to make of all of this… I suspect it has something to do with having a special day just for me, expecting great things, receiving little and finally appreciating that things don’t matter only love does in the end.

I am loved & maybe I need a birthday to remind me that I am. Yesterday is God’s way of telling me to let go & let people love me. Indeed I am overwhelmed by the calls, smses, emails, gifts, hugs, smiles, sentiments! Most of all I am overwhelmed by how much God loves me…cause I see Him in all my family & friends.

So here is to the greatest spoil of war - LOVE. Also here is to Ghana, who even despite their loss, brought a continent together in hope.

SO TO EVERYONE WHO REMEMBERED (OR DIDN’T) TO ALL THOSE WHO LOVE ME TO ALL THOSE WHO I LOVE… THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. MAY MY APPRECIATION VIBRATES ACROSS TIME, SPACE, CONTINENTS… TO MAKE YOU FEEL LOVED AS WELL.

June 27, 2006

BIRTHDAY POST

Filed under: Vee World — by Vee @ 10:10 am

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I have this amazing knack of being really sleepy on my birthday; as I was 25 years ago. I started this year with the nastiest hangover ever… now I’m ending it with a so far sweet yet dramatic day.

So I wake up and carry on with my morning routine… only to find that two tyres had been stolen overnight from Mum’s car. How bizarre? Finally made it to town, ran some errands then took a bus to work… there was this energetic preacher who ran through three topics between town & Hurlingham. I think he was speaking on dreams and God’s favor cause I heard Joseph, Elijah and whoever else suited his sermon being mentioned. He ended it with a song on how if God said He will bless you then He will. My summary of that situation is that if you don’t go to church it will come to you so I received both the unexpected prayer & word with humility.

So far so good. Munching on some saltless lunch, waiting for a soda to come and really wishing I called in sick so that I could have stayed home and snoozed the day away in contemplation about “What Next?”

Ghana is playing Brazil at the World Cup round of 16. There is mock hope that Ghana can either hold or win Brazil… mock because it’s a long shot for Ghana to win but better to aim for the stars (be they black or not) and then land for the moon…instead of aiming for nothing and ending up with nothing. I think it’s the hope that a debutant at the World’s Greatest Game can win a 5 time winner… that’s the stuff dreams are made of and you can’t take that away from us…

VIVA GHANA!

June 26, 2006

X-MEN’S PHOENIX & THE END OF GODDESS WORSHIP

Filed under: Vee World — by Vee @ 10:46 am

DISCLAIMER: SORRY IF YOU HAVEN’T WATCHED THE MOVIE YET.

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The sci-fi action & the funny banter that seems to have been added to Storm & Wolverine's scripts are what kept me going throughout the movie. Personally, I think everyone looked really really slim or having lost weight except Mystique - after she became human - or maybe the NuMetro screens remove 10lbs??? Anyway…

I was so psyched to see Jean Grey’s resurrection, as we all knew she would - since we could see a form in the water at the end of X-men II. So she appeared, she kills Cyclops (oops) but best of all she has more powers! Turns out she’s even more powerful than Dr. Xavier… only that she’s a bit unsure about the power she yields…

Now allow me to digress for a bit.

In traditional Kikuyu history we are told of a time when women ruled the society. And that at some point men got fed-up, planned to impregnate the women to keep them busy & then took over the leadership. Before the Hebrew religion (that we now as Jewish and later Christianity) there was wide spread worship of Female deities. This was however stamped out by the Early Christian church as paganism and eventually most women were killed under the accusation of being called witches. Woman today has been raised under a patriarchal society, where men have the first say, first privilege etc… granted that is changing but it’s still a struggle in many places for example in Burma where being a man is regarded as the best thing in your cycle of reincarnation, while being a woman is a punishment much like being a frog or rat- a country where women pray to come as men in their next life.

What am I getting at here? Simple, there was a time (there still should be) when Woman had equal if not more power to man. And man either due to a bruised ego, jealousy or awe decided to take that away from the world and put himself as the sole being in terms of power.

Back to X-Men III: We see the rebirth of Jean Grey and her new personality Phoenix. She is regarded as the new Mutant leader after she kills Dr. Xavier. Even Magneto can’t put himself in her league. From the time Dr. Xavier dies, she’s given deity status, always standing apart from everyone and at a higher level. She wearing a deep maroon/red (which depicts female power), has long hair, keen and watchful eyes.

Anyway, so the movie progresses and we go through this whole fight between “good & evil” on the Island of Alcatraz. Then at some point Phoenix is angered and she starts destroying everything around her. Only Wolverine can stand against her and she asks, “You are willing to die for them?” and he replies, “Not for them, for you…” She is touched by his ONE LINER changes to the meek Jean Grey and he kills her!

Tell me you don’t see the link here yet again. That once again a man was in fear/awe of the power of a woman and decided instead of waiting for her to get her power in balance he kills her. Dr. Xavier knew of the potential power and hid it from everyone else & even Jean; and because Jean was raised in a patriarchal world, she believed that her power was for evil and not good. She believed that the man had the 411 on what is right & wrong. Fine she was about to destroy the whole world, but we all know woman has the common sense to snap out of it and sort things out!

 

Kills me that yet again, we have the chance to vindicate the Female Power/Goddess/Deity as a Creatress, Virgin, Mother, Sister, Lover, Destroyer, Warrior, Huntress, Homemaker, Wife, Artist, Jurist, Healer and Sorcerer… instead we let HER die everyday!

 

 

THE LAKE HOUSE

Filed under: Vee World — by Vee @ 8:07 am

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I'm at it again! Confession: I'm a sucker for romance movies. Sadly they don't them as great anymore! So here is my current list (in no particular order) before I add The LakeHouse:

•Fools rush in

•Serendipity

•Brown Sugar

•Sliding Doors

•Love Actually

•Love Jones

•Love & Basketball

• etc

I watched the trailer for The LakeHouse and I teared-up! I mean Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves in a romance? Come on now, you know it will be a great movie!! The concept is very simple and has many elements from Serendipity & Sliding Doors…"what if you were separated from your soul-mate only by time?"

I believe time plays a very critical role in love & romance. I mean don't you ever think "what if I chose him or her now then I find out it's wrong" or "what if i don't then I find out they are the one!"

Ok once in a while, in the fantasy land of my mind I believe there is the one for everyone. In reality I know that if you meet someone now, they can be the one, as so long as you decide they are! Love is a decision not a feeling…

June 23, 2006

BE STILL

Filed under: Veotry — by Vee @ 8:42 am

by vee

 

 

 

a quiet person…
preserves his mind
preserves his spirit
preserves his soul

 

for a quiet mind…
knows of what it speaks,
knows of what it dreams
knows of what it desires…

 

a quiet spirit…
harbors no pain,
harbors no grudge,
harbors no shame…

 

and a quiet soul…
waits for itself to learn,
waits for itself to grow,
waits for itself to love…

 

a quiet me…
should know no
undue noise
for my goal…
to preserve my soul

 

 

 

 

June 22, 2006

JUST WHEN…

Filed under: Vee World — by Vee @ 5:43 am

…I think I'm ok and my life is ~ not perfect ~ but ok… just when I think I'm happy around the people I wanna be around… I find out that I have issues & they are getting angry vybes from me… I've really been trying to be calm and not angry, but if I dunno where the anger is coming from then how do I manage it? Seems everyone is thinking they've done something wrong to me… but they haven't. So I just feel that I've been lashing out at people and that hurts me the most cause I really don't want to hurt anyone. I dunno just think I'll take another mental break, find out wsup. Meanwhile, I hope people cut me some slack…

June 21, 2006

TRIANGLE THROUGH A CIRCLE…

Filed under: Vee World — by Vee @ 9:53 am

… I've posted a song by Missy Higgins. It facinates me the notion of trying to fit into life then find you are the wrong shape; she calls it

"A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle."

Our natural instinct is to try and change to the shape that the world wants us to be, but you find yourself hurting on the sides, insides and every side. I remember a good friend explained it as walking in an orange shirt against a sea of people in blue shirts, walking in the opposite direction. Then when you decide to go with the flow, you turn to join the blue sea but find yourself alone in blue against a sea of orange… So at that point you cease to bother trying to conform.

I dunno what it is that I'm trying to conform to; but I wish I did so that I can stop all together… I'm hurting and getting very frustrated.

"doesn't that sound familiar? doesn't that hit you close to home…"

~Missy Higgins "Scar"~

MISSY HIGGINS - SCAR (I love the song!)

Filed under: Quotes — by Vee @ 9:44 am


He left a card, a bar of soap and a scrubbing brush next to a note That said "use these down to your bones"
And before I knew I had shiny skin and it felt easy being clean like him
I thought "this one knows better than I do"

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle
He tried to cut me so I'd fit

And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could've gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?

So the next one came with a bag of treats, she smelled like sugar and
spoke like the sea
And she told me don't trust them, trust me
Then she pulled at my stitches one by one, looked at my insides clicking
her tongue and said
"This will all have to come undone"

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle
She tried to blunt me so I'd fit

And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?

I think I realized just in time, although my old self was hard to find
You bathe me in your finest wine but I'll never give you mine
'Cos I'm a little bit tired of fearing that I'll be the bad fruit nobody buys
Tell me, did you think we'd all dream the same?

And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?
Could you leave me with a scar?

TO ICE-CREAM OR NOT TO ICE-CREAM

Filed under: Vee World — by Vee @ 5:34 am

Guess I overall I was just tired yesterday that the whole ice-cream saga really got to me. Got home and tucked myself to a nap quick fast! A couple of football matches, dinner & chatting with Mum later, I was feeling spunky! Then I slept late cause of the England vs Sweden match which ended in a draw! Drat, really wanted Sweden to win and make England face Germany next which would mean the Queen's men would be making a quick exit. Alas for me, my desires didn't come through, and now I'm the office sleepy to boot…

The beauty of an almost clear skied day is that it might become fully clear or not… either way hope reigns in a man's heart not the weather!

June 20, 2006

EEEEKY

Filed under: Vee World — by Vee @ 2:09 pm

That's how I feel right now. I asked someone out for ice-cream this evening and they can't make it. Feel like I've been stood-up, maybe I have… dunno *sigh* it just sucks! I suppose this is how a guy feels when he asks a girl out and she puts him down, but I guess that's the beauty of being a guy… the next pretty thing that passes infront of him will get his undivided attention! As for me, eeekey… so I'm heading home to moop…

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