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To my small blog following…been a hectic passed few weeks. Meanwhile there are small changes going on with the image of my blog.

~thanks~

Up for air….

It’s been a hectic week with two major assignments due. Just handed in the last of them. But I’m only up for air…gotta dive back…more work due next week.

This has been a surprising day for me. One I managed to finish my book - printing, binding and all…on time…but only handed it in at the last minute. It is so pretty didn’t want to let go…have to spend another 100+ to get another one! Urgh…money makes the world….CRAZY!

Second thing, I got a chance to be DRIVEN in a two door BMW convertible 5series. Would have loved the roof down…but beggers cannot be…. yah. Just my classmates car….not much! And I’m driving a….yah right! Number 11 all the way…Loved the pleasure of it…but don’t think I’ll be ever getting myself one…I’m a refurbished beetle or mini girl!!! Viva la second hand!

Third I got a call from a long lost friend - five months long lost to be exact. It was weird thought it was a ‘wrong number’ or ‘crank call’ was about the hung up! But the familiar voice caught me! Interesting to catch up…but curious as to why five months later!????

Fourth, I got my allowance…just when I was gearing for another week of being broke!

Oh and lastly….woke up to a sunny day, those stratified white clouds again! No breeze on my face…but oh how I Thank God It’s Friday!

Think I’ll go see a flick! Whatever is on…

~Ciao~

“Lord is that you…

…trying to make me smile?”

Emotionally my week has been pretty rough. I can’t even beginning to explain. I hate myself for doing this to me. I have some things that I need to work out but I always manage to convince myself that it’s not the time or place. Clearly that always leads to me breaking down atleast once or twice at some point of the year! I’m turning 24 next month and I should figure out that my system isn’t working… I need a new plan! But what pray tell can that be?

However low my week was I know someone was looking out for me. I got a long distance phone call wishing me a good day, I saw a funny looking cloud, an amazing sunset and just today (for the first time in a long time) I felt a cool Saturday morning breeze on my face. The sky was just that perfect Saturday-sky-blue, with stratified white fluffy clouds! Best of all the wind was blowing on my face. I had a frown on today….but it went away. Then I wondered…. “Lord? Is that you trying to make me smile?”

I read somewhere once how it’s a pity how God will make a different masterpiece painting in the sky at dawn & dusk. Yet we are so busy to even look up at and appreciate or say thankyou; but we will pay airfare, hotel accomodation and what not to go see the Mona Lisa in a locked up casing. Yet everyday - for free - you can feel the wind on your cheek, rain drops on your skin….you can see those you love and say hello to new people. God doesn’t ask me for anything…so who said the best things in life aren’t free?

May the Lord keep us & bless us. May He shine His light upon us. May we learn to appreciate that light…for one day it will go away.

Thomas Paine

The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph.

What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly;

it is dearness only that gives everything its value.

I love the man that can smile in trouble,

that can gather strength from distress

and grow brave by reflection.

‘Tis the business of little minds to shrink;

but he whose heart is firm,

and whose conscience approves his conduct,

will pursue his principles unto death.

I’ve found several quotes from this man that are really interesting. Apparently he was born in Thomas Paine was born January 29, 1736-7 and Abraham Linlcon was an admirer! I thought the dude was a 20th Century guy. Anyway for more information (it’s really long though) go to:

http://www.thomaspaine.org/bio/ConwayLife.html

Kenyan Humor - Roocy’s Explanachion

The Ndiop party that I interrupted
yesterday the outngoing ndirector of the waod bank ndecnded to throw an irreego muratina party at my house. I cannot stand for such nonsense from people who think my ngoverment is vomiting on their shoes.First of all the pary ndid not have any shavashi or mukimo and they hand people like Eric Wainaina who shood be deported from Kenya and go to a ndifferent country rike Kisumu. Then you have that Hairless witch, mercy Myra who is married to a mukora according to my mbook.Mr Ndiop was disturbing the peace which is irreego. Then he tried to stand up to me. I tood him just rike I should..”No man in Kenya has dared talk back to me. period” Kweri anafikiria Muthaiga is Korogosho. I am very upset at this man because he refused my sexual advance. I am the first rendi.by the way my husband was asreep

DARE TO LOVE

by vee

If love of infinite possibility
were available to me
If all fantasies & romances
were at my immediate reach
Would I dedicate myself endlessly
to the one I love?
If all the pain and anguish
that comes with love,
were to torment me eternally
If all the heartbreaks known to man
were to seize me & capture my soul.
If all this was to happen…
Would my dedication to commitment be
my life's story?
We'll never know what makes or breaks us.
We'll never be able to imagine what tomorrow will be.
But the decision to love, the choice to commit
the need to have faith in even the smallest thing.
Can create that eternal and unconditional love
which is of God, & man can only dare to imagine.

Uuuurrrrgh?!

Ever get one of those days that you wake up with so many negative emotions you want to scream and dive out the 11th floor window?? Relax I’m not contemplating suicide - there is so much that am yet to do - anyway…wuosha! Yesterday I went to bed really wound up and today I woke up no different. See I really got ticked off with a situation I’ve found myself in. Boy oh boy it’s like a witches brew pot in here *see finger pointing to mind & heart* There is some jealousy, frustration, feeling unappreciated, panic, anger…….urgh!

We then have to consider my semester is ending and it’s winding up fast! Trying to catch my breath, do my work and get out of here in one piece. Then there is the consideration of what I’m going to do after I get that piece of paper called a Degree. Though in this here school it holds no actual significance for me right now. There is still the photography course in US - I’m waiting to see if I get the scholarships I applied for…crossed fingers!!!

I was flipping through a Limkokwing magazine (one of the many University publications that we never get to see) and seeing people having achieved atleast something in their time here. They’ve been University spoke’s people, models, winners of great awards…they got to represent their country in something. What have I done? Nothing… I felt really useless…and add that to the feelings I woke up with. Don’t know what I’ve accomplished in the four years I’ve been here. To get my sanity together I think I’d better think about that. Something else on my list of thoughts.

The one thing I have to hold on to today is….just when I thought my mind would blow I get a call all the way from home…. my cousin wishing me a good day. Not week or month….but day. I really needed that to be wished upon me…cause seriously it’s still all churnining inside. I can only now work on making his wish for me come true. I’m going to have a good day…EVEN THOUGH I HAVE TO DO IT MYSELF!

Credo’s to live by…

A Humanist Code of Ethics:
Do no harm to the earth, she is your mother.
Being is more important than having.
Never promote yourself at another’s expense.
Hold life sacred; treat it with reverence.
Allow each person the digity of his or her labor.
Open your home to the wayfarer.
Be ready to receive your deepest dreams;
sometimes they are the speech of unblighted conscience.
Always make restitutions to the ones you have harmed.
Never think less of yourself than you are.
Never think that you are more than another.
Arthur Dobrin
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Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.

adapted
Bertrand Russell
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This is what I believe:
That I am I.
That my soul is a dark forest.
That my known self will never be more than a little clearing in the forest.
That gods, strange gods, come forth from the forest into the clearing of my known self, and then go back.
That I must have the courage to let them come and go.
That I will never let mankind put anything over me, but that I will try always to recognize and submit to the gods in me and the gods in other men and women.
There is my creed.
D. H. Lawrence
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If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain.
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.
Emily Dickinson

My new philosophy…

“Bite off more than you can chew, then chew it.” Ella Williams

Saturday’s Party??

Due to public demand….ok ok just Nicole…. the party on Saturday has very intimate and embarrassing details…that you should come to C-11-1 Vista Prima to hear the gory details; but by invitation only!!!

Hehehehe…

Let me put it in the best way I can… it was DEEEEEEEEP! You had to be there to get it….you know?

Yes, yes… I know it sounds juicy and it was…it was great fun, great people, inspiring conversation; and basically there were no Limkokwing students all around. Which as you know has become a very disturbing element in the social scene the passed two years! Urgh! Get them away from me!! HEEEELP!